Anything But Gray

As everyone who knows me well, knows…..I have never met one of my best friends, face to face.
We met on the internet, a Bon Jovi message board, to be exact,  and we just immediately clicked.
We have called each other soulmates….and I really believe it, with her.
I know I was meant to meet her, I know she was meant to be in my life….

We all have had things in our childhood that affect us.
Good and bad things affecting us in good and bad ways.
I had an issue from childhood that had the potential to really own me, to control me and I was on the edge…not quite sure….was I going to let it control me? Or was I going to control it? Not sure if I was strong enough to not let it control me…just all kinds of thinking going on in my head, at the time…..
And then I met her…..who had went through the same exact thing I did. And I couldn't believe it. I felt like I was hearing my story come out of someone else's mouth…and with meeting her, came the strength to realize I wasn't going to let this thing define me or control me. And I have never looked back….from that moment on I have always looked back on this issue in a very matter of fact way…and with no regrets. Because for better or for worse, that issue has made me who I am.  J brought me that….it is something she gave me that I honestly don't believe anyone else ever could. Hence, why I call her my soulmate….my meeting her really did have a profound impact on my life, bigger than almost any other one person in my life. It truly changed my path….and I believe it was meant to happen.

That and the fact that she idolized Bon Jovi the way I did…..hell, she was even worse than me…!!!
So we've always shared that and that has always been our bonding thing….it's not the only thing, mind you, but of course, it's been a huge thing in our relationship.

Now everyone who knows me, also knows that J and I have made FIVE THOUSAND damn plans to meet! Something always happens…something always falls through. It is SERIOUSLY annoying. Zak and me and the kids are supposed to go in November…right after Thanksgiving..I"m not even gonna talk about it right now because I want it so bad and if it doesn't happen I'm gonna be so pissed off it's not even funny. LOL ANYWAY….

J and I are looking over the tour dates because they are putting out a new album November 10th and they are touring for it. (Of course! ) And we decide we are going to see them in May. When they play the new Giants stadium, which is their "homecoming" show. Whenever they play Giants stadium, they consider that "home". So needless to say,  I am beyond excited. Jumping and down…breathless…can't believe…and can't friggin' wait…..just so thrilled.

So then later, J and I are talking on im. And she comments that she can't believe the thing that brought us together, we are now going to get to go see…live. And both of us are feeling pretty awestruck and sentimental about it and just talking and then J comments that it is like it's come full circle, our relationship….and I see the words on im and I gasp. Literally gasp. I tell her "J….full circle. The album name….The Circle…..OMG, WE ARE SO GOING TO SEE THEM THIS SHOW!!!! " LOL

in that instant, I knew it.
I know it.
It's meant to be.
It's fate.
and I can't wait.,,..:-)