Anything But Gray

The sun is peeking out here and there….it's trying to come out and I am really, really hoping it succeeds!!!
LOL

My mind is BUSY this morning! There are so many things I want to do or get done and I just don't even know where to start….I"m thinking today things….future things….stuff I want to be better….I miss creating, I miss my blog, I miss my "to do" lists….and today is a turn around day. A day where I can feel a motivation in me to get back to good. Back to me….

I don't know if I'm making sense, really. What I do know is I don't feel entirely complete right now and I feel like I'm letting life pass by and I'm not even "recording" it. I love this blog and the memories it keeps….and when I look back on the past year….God, there is just so much missing on here…..so many silly little things, some amazing things….some everyday things….just so much is not here. And it makes me a little sad.

I need to get back to my blog and writing life down. I am so happy when I'm doing that. I know the kids will one day love having this glimpse into our everyday life…their life….and it's nice for the people who love us who are faraway to have this little spot where they can feel like they are keeping up.

Not that many people read this but honestly, that's not the reason I do it…of course, I love when people do read it, but that's not what the blog is about for me….

It's just my little spot in the world where I can write again…..and keep a journal of "us"……

So today…..I am going to go get a new notebook…that's how I have always kept "to do" lists…in notebooks. Not only do my lists go in there but it's also my "thinking journal…" Anything inspiring..from my art to my marketing ideas to my business ideas to my lyrics……I always have a notebook full of sketches and notes and ideas……I am never without a notebook…and the one I have been using has been pretty full for awhile so I haven't been doing "to do" lists in it….and I really honestly think a  lot my problems can all be solved with that…..a new notebook.

If I put "blog" as one of my things to do, that will force me to sit and think of something to write. Even when I think I have nothing or think I have so much I don't know where to start….either way, this will put my face in front of my blog and make me write. You have no idea how much I truly think that is part of why I haven't been blogging! It's crazy, but I truly do think so…I just need to be told to sit down and do it! Even if it's ME telling me! 

So that is my mission for today. New notebook and a new resolve to get back to good.
 Back to my blog, back to taking & posting pictures, back to my cards….just back to good.

And yes, I know I have done this before…..but today, this day, I am going to do something about it so that the resolve sticks!!!

Wish me luck!

And FYI…I almost gave up on this post because my mouse is messed up and it's royally pissing me off…!!!!!
🙂