Anything But Gray

you ever have those times when you feel like you just aren't "good" enough, in any capacity? There is nothing I am doing great or even really good….my life right now is a blur of half assedness….I don't care that that's not a fucking word. My blog, I can make words up if I want, so fuck you grammar police.

The list of all I feel like I'm not doing good at is a mile long….

Not being a great wife
not being good at focusing on my goals and getting them done.
not being a good mom
"blowing things off" with the house…..
Not having sex with my husband enough….(get your jaws off the floor..even I do get stressed out enough that I can't relax enough to enjoy "adult" time…)
Lousy friend…
Not keeping up with my blog.
not cooking enough….
Lousy at birthdays for the last year….(and oh, how this kills me….)

But hey..there IS an upside…..I have a few things I AM apparently fantastic at.

Fat.
Ugly.
Bitch.

See? All is not lost…..I got some stuff I'm acing….

Whatever.

The pity party is RIGHT HERE today…..
you can only refuse the invitation so many times until you finally just say…..
"oh fuck it, I"ll go and just get it over with.…."

Hopefully, I can get away with just making an appearance and some small talk and get the fuck out of there FAST.