Anything But Gray

16 years ago today, Zak and I got married.
We have weathered many of storms and we have celebrated in many of happy times.
And while I am aware that part of "us" is plain and simple luck. We were lucky to find each other so young and we have been lucky with the people who have surrounded us….
But I'm not going to chalk it all up to luck.
We work at what we have. At times it's easy and at times it's hard.
We make sure we remain important to each other.  Like our date night. When Jaime was born, it was really Ceci's idea to watch Jaime one night a week, every week, so Zak and I could go out. Of course we took her up on it. And she continued to do it for years. Then last year her life just got too busy and she couldn't do it anymore, so we hired Kayla to take over. And there have been so many times we really couldn't afford it, because when you add paying a babysitter on top of going out, it gets pretty darn expensive and then you add that up to four nights a month….it's quite a bit. But instead of not going out, we just did "free" things instead of dinner or instead of a movie. We'd grab some sandwiches and go sit in the office and just chat. Or we'd just go drive around….but we always made sure we went out alone together. There is some luck in that, lucky that we had Ceci to watch the kids for so many years, lucky that Kayla was so willing to take over the job…but it was a commitment to each other, too.
A lot of people don't get our "date night". They don't understand how we can work together, be home every night together, yet still want that date night. And this is where luck does comes in…..we are still in love that yeah, we do want that date night. We love it. We look forward to it.

All in all….even thought I know we owe a lot of success in our marriage to our own determination and work.
But I still feel lucky most of the time…lucky to have him, lucky he's the awesome guy he is….
Plain and simple….I absolutely adore the man.
I'm a big believer in you can't help how you feel and I just love that I feel so in love with him.
and that is lucky, indeed….

I heard this in Sex and The City when I went and saw it with Danielle and Kim last weekend and I immediately went home and looked it up…..it's from some letters Beethoven wrote…..(you can look it up….just google Immortal Beloved letters by Beethoven.)

Be calm,
only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our
purpose
to live together – Be calm – love me – today – yesterday – what tearful
longings for you – you – you – my life – my all – farewell. Oh continue
to love me – never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Love it.

Wedding pic dance edited copy

Happy Anniversary, baby.
16 years and you still look at me this way…and it still makes my heart skip a beat.
Thank you for being so wonderful, thank you for being you.
Thank you for us.

I love you.
wife
xoxo