Anything But Gray

It has been a crazy few days, but a very good kind of crazy.

For New Year's we took it easy, we didn't want to do anything super crazy because of my birthday on Friday.
If we had a totally crazy night, I wouldn't feel better until my birthday and I'm too busy this week for that.
It just takes too long to recover now…lol. So we kept it simple but wound up having a really fun night.
We took the kids over to Ryan and Janice's house and they had out of town guests that were really cool, so it was a fun night. The kids had a blast, as always. They all play so well together. Poor Jack wasn't feeling so hot and he went to bed and Ben kept asking for him "Where's Jack? Where'd Jack go??" lol It was really cute. It really amazes me how well Ben and Jack play together. My rambunctious, bull-in-a-china-shop 4 year old son actually plays very gently and calmly with Jack, who is 2. I love watching them play. And of course Jaime and Lindsay had a blast.
All in all, very mellow, very low key, but very, very fun. We left well before midnight and Zak and I rang in the new year with me sitting in a nice hot bubble bath, with champagne and candlelight and him hanging out with me, just talking.
Very cool!

And of course, because it is New Year's there are resolutions and thoughts on how this year will be better.
This is going to be a big year for us.
Many big changes.
We are hoping to move out of here and back home…
Obviously nothing is etched in stone, but the goal is by summer.
Moving is such a stressful thing and although the kids are very excited about it, I still worry about them adjusting.
And a part of me is very sad to leave the wonderful people here. (I'm talking about people outside of family…I don't even want to go there tonight, I'm in a good mood and thinking about leaving Ceci makes me miserable, so we'll save that for another day…)
Especially Kim. Her and I have become very close over the years and she is such a grounded, good influence for me.
She makes things make sense for me, she knows me so well and that's a good feeling….there is just a lot about my relationship with her that I really love and I know I am going to miss her a lot.
Danielle too. I am really glad that she has moved back to Juneau. I am thankful that she is here and I get the chance to get to know Joey and spend time with her, before we move.

On the other hand….as much as I know I will miss them and all the other people that matter to us, I have been spending the last 16 years missing my sister, the rest of my family and my friends, that bad too.
It's a weird feeling sometimes, to be so happy yet sad about the people you are leaving behind.
So I've been thinking of all that today, that's our major change for the year…

On a "me" level, I want to get  back into working out. I got sick in October and couldn't work out (because I couldn't friggin' breathe!!) and then I just got lazy and let it go. I want to get back to that. It's such a healthy thing, such a good thing that I don't want to let it slack. Not to mention, I'd like to have an ass that doesn't sag all the way to my frickin' knees..that'd be nice. Or saddlebags that you could carry a house in…that'd be good too. 🙂
ha!

And NO PROCRASTINATING!!!
If something needs to be done, do it.
By nature I am not one to procrastinate, but there are things that I will blow off and blow off and blow off. And then they hang over my head, stressing me out…and it's simple, stupid things. Like put something in storage. Or go through old magazines. Stuff like that…and this year I am getting it done!! Well, try to anyway!!

I have a few other things I want to be better about. I want be better about calling J. I have been terrible with that and I miss her a lot. I want to do more of my projects this year….
Just tons of stuff that I know I could make better and frankly I think life is good when you are striving everyday to make yourself better.
I just hope I can do at least SOME of these things! LOL

Happy, Happy New Year to everyone!!!

Now it's on to being excited about my BIRTHDAY, which is on Friday and I cannot WAIT!!
It's going to be a fantastic, wonderful day filled with family and friends!
More on that later…

It's getting late and I need to take a bath….and soak my totally sore butt because I worked out on New Year's Eve day and after not having done so in about 3 months…my butt hurts.
Bad.
ha!