Anything But Gray

Right now, I wish I could turn back the clock…

A young couple lost their baby.
A baby that fought hard for his life, fought hard to be here.
There are tragedies that I just cannot understand.

This baby was related to one of my friends and I was looking forward to getting together with my friend so she could tell me all about him. We hadn't been able to get together in awhile and she was going to come over tomorrow.
And I couldn't wait to hear every little detail about this baby and how the parents were doing.
We were going to get together last weekend but I couldn't because of the class I had to take.
How I wish I could go back, so she could get the joy of telling me all about him…

I am so sad.
And I feel helpless.
There is just nothing I can say that can help my friend.
My words seem useless and so small.

Although I have a hard time understanding things like this, I do turn to my faith…and I pray.
Pray for all the hearts that are broken and suffering from this loss.
And pray I am a good friend..pray I will say or do the right things…and pray that I am strong for my friend.
When someone I love is hurt, I hurt too. But I hurt too much and I don't know that it is helpful when you are going to somone in need and then you're supposed support winds up in tears. I cry too easy…
Empathy is not a bad thing and I wouldn't change that part of me, but I need to learn to be stronger when my loved ones need me and break down when they are gone. <sigh> I don't know that I'm making sense at all.
It's just that she has been there for me a thousand times and she is always so strong for me and such a good friend to me.  And I just hope I can be strong for her and I hope I can be of some help to her.

I just feel helpless….and just so sorry.
So incredibly sorry for this loss.