Anything But Gray

J and I had a little "spat".
Her and I rarely fight and on the one hand, I hate when we do, but on the other, I think we come out of it with a better understanding of each other AND I really think it makes our bond that much deeper. I know I realize that no matter what, she isn't going anywhere…and I thrive on that security with my friends. I need that security. Granted, it would still be there even if we never fought, but every little disagreement that we have, once we work it out, I always think how good it is that we can have our differences and still adore each other and trust each other.

And the thing with J….she truly is a soulmate for me. I truly believe this woman was put into my life on purpose and for a purpose. So I never doubt that we will work our differences out. Never, not for a second. Now sometimes I wonder how long it will take, but I never, ever doubt that we will work it out. And I always know I'm supposed to learn something from our disagreements. I know there is some lesson that is in there for me. So it makes me dig deeper and it makes me think harder and really figure myself and my problem out.
And I'm grateful for that…I'm grateful for her. And her support and advice and friendship. She means so much to me and when we were have disagreements, I always feel a bit unsettled.

We haven't spoke to each other on the phone since our disagreement. We've left comments on each other's blog and im'd but I haven't heard her voice. She called this weekend to let me know a Bon Jovi special was on and her voice was like a big, huge, cuddly blanket wrapped around me. As utterly corny as that sounds, it truly was like a comfort washed over me and everything felt alright again.
Like we never fought at all....