I just love when people who have never lived in a place nor spent any significant amount of time in said place, try to tell you, who is from there, what it's like there….
For the record…..
Nashua average sunny days–222
Juneau average sunny days–86
(which Zak and I both think is high, last we knew Juneau averaged about 45 sunny days a year….but I don't feel like hunting for the info…this number is good enough to make my point)
I'm just saying…..
So Zak and Ceci's birthday was an absolute blast.
We had cake and ice cream and gave out presents here.
Then we all (Ceci, JR, DJ, Kayla and me and Zak and the kids) went out to dinner, which I love when we do that and we don't do it enough. We should make it a rule…once a month we all go do something as a family. Even if it's just hang out at home and watch a movie….or out to dinner….SOMETHING…ANYTHING. I miss us all being together and spending time together.
Kayla watched the kids and me, Zak, Ceci and JR all went out after. We had such a good time. JR and Ceci both sang and that was cool. Zak and I danced a little bit and that was fun. We have got to go out more….I love going out.
All in all it was a great birthday for them. JR got Ceci an iphone, so she is psyched…although you can't use it here, yet. But everyone is saying in like a month we'll be able to use it…so that's cool.
I have a busy day…Lindsay is coming over to play with Jaime, I have to do laundry with a broken dryer…I have to order a continuing education class for my license…call Wanda cause it's her birthday and just a bunch of other little things….
So I'm off…
let the day begin! lol
It's not going to be a major, huge birthday this year, but it should be fun.
Zak is taking most of the day off, which is cool.
I have to work out at some point…but other than that…I don't "have" to do much.
We do need to go to the store to get a cake and Ceci's gift…lol.
The plan is everyone over for cake and ice cream when Kayla is done with work and then out to dinner.
Then back home, get the kids settled and then head downtown to go out.
I'm excited. We haven't been out in awhile, it should be fun.
Happy Birthday honey!!! I love you SO much.
Happy Birthday Ceci!!
And Auntie, Happy Birthday to you too…did you get your card??
more later!
Another crazy busy day down.
I was so busy because I'm trying to get stuff done for Zak and Ceci's birthday tomorrow.
I had WANTED to get downtown and see Danielle before she left before her trip.
But I was so friggin' busy I didn't even get a chance to call her, let alone go see her.
That so sucks…
I think I'm going to try in the am though and hopefully I'll catch her before her and Joey take off. They are going to be gone a couple of weeks.
Kim is leaving tomorrow too and thank god she called me tonight because for some reason I thought she was leaving Friday even though I'm sure she told me a million times she was leaving Thursday. I can be such a space case sometimes…
So Kim and my conversation tonight….it was very cool.
You have moments in your friendships with people when you realize just how much they matter to you.
It was that kind of conversation.
She talked about coming back east to visit us some time.
And in that sentence it just confirmed what I already knew.
She's a life long friend…not just a "for now" friend, but a forever friend.
And I already knew that, for me…but tonight's conversation just let me know she feels the same.
And that makes me feel good…
It's Kirk's birthday today…and I'm happy that I can wish him a Happy Birthday.
Have an awesome day!
tah!
I will miss someone for the rest of my life.
No matter where I go, there will be someone I'm missing.
When I get back home and get back to what I have spent the last 16 years missing, I will miss Ceci, JR, DJ, Kayla. Terribly. The thought of no Ceci is so difficult for me that most times I just push it out of my mind. I never, ever wanted her to be the Aunt that visits once a year, to my kids. There is so much about her that I admire, adore and love. I wanted my kids to grow up with her influence. That woman is so amazing….so utterly amazing in her genuineness and her kindness. She has a beautiful, breathtaking soul and I wanted that influence on my kids. I wanted her presence as a constant in their life. It is truly devastating for me to realize it won't be there. And I struggle with that. I honestly believe her influence would've had an effect on my kids and I struggle if I'm doing the right thing, by taking them away from that influence that I believe is so very good for them and their souls. Can one person have that much of an impact? I believe one person can…but I also know I can't live my life here. Nor can Zak. Neither one of us could do this for a lifetime. So I struggle with this thought…
Then the fact that she is my best friend and I will miss her horribly, for me. She is so important to me and matters so much to me…When she walks in the door, she truly makes my day better. I look forward to even 5 minutes with her.
I always feel lucky that I get to be her best friend, because she has so many people that absolutely adore her and she picks me…little old me to be one of her best friends. Lucky girl, I am, indeed. So there's that…
Then the fact that she is Zak's twin sister and they are really close and he will have to live the rest of his life without her.
The thought of our life without Ceci breaks my heart. And it's something I push out of my head and just think I'll deal with that when the time comes….
I'll really miss Kim and Danielle. They have been wonderful friends and I love them both tons. I will truly miss them.
My mom in Florida…I'll still miss her even living back east…
My brother will be in Alabama then…..I'll miss him and his family.
Tina and Kim and their families will still be on the West Coast….
I am elated we are going home, but even that isn't going to fix everything and I guess that just is really hitting home today. I'm missing someone really bad today and I needed to do some big thinking.
I know I'll always be missing someone….and it's okay.
It's just never how I imagined my life would be.
It's not a bad thing, more like a "wow" thing.
Life can sure wind up a whole hell of a lot different than you imagine it will be when you are a kid.
A whole hell of a lot different.
So as pretty much everyone knows, I've begun counting down the days until we move. (374 in case you're wondering.)
It's always been common knowledge that we will eventually move from here but we've never had a date before.
It's exciting and a little scary.
But a few things have happened over the last week that have made me realize it's all going to be okay and that we are really going home.
First thing…
I was talking on the phone to Kirk last week and I was telling him what I had come up with for our car situation. We're going to buy a new car back home when we come in March and just park it somewhere back home. Then we are going to sell both of our cars up here before we leave and then use that money to buy another car back home when we get there. That way we still have just one car payment and we don't have to worry about moving either one of our cars across the country. (How brilliant am I, thank you very much. lol) Well, Kirk mentions that he has a friend that might be able to get us a good deal on a car in March. So that's cool….but this in itself I wouldn't have called a "sign", but when you add these other two….
Second thing…
I drove Jaime to soccer practice today and when we're walking to the field together I see a little boy and an older man. The little boy is wearing a Patriots football jersey…# 54, Tedy Bruschi. I say to the little boy.."hey, cool jersey! Bruschi rocks!" The little boy and the man smile at me. Jaime and I keep walking and I hear the man talking to the little boy. I turn around and say "Hey…you're not just wearing the jersey, you're from Boston! I can tell…" He so had a Boston accent. And not just a Massachusetts accent…a Boston accent. (and there is a difference….) We start talking about back home and neighborhoods I grew up in, in Boston. Anyway, I tell him how Zak and I are planning on moving to Nashua in a year and how Zak is a Realtor and is going to do that back there. The man tells me to take a numbah (ha!) down…so I put the number in my blackberry and he gives me a name and then goes on to tell me how this guy is a top Realtor in New Hampshire and he'll help us out, as far as advice on what office we should look at..how the market is…etc. He says when you call him tell him his brother sent you. How freakin' cool is that? That is super cool to have a lead like that. Just someone we can talk to that knows the market and knows New Hampshire.
Third thing…
Tonight I get this email from Billiejo….she is on this email list of Reverend Run's (of Run DMC). It's a little spiritual advice/guidance email every day. She gets them and she then forwards them to me. She told me how I could sign up but I told her that I like that she is the one sending them to me, so she does. And this was today's….well actually it was sent to her a couple days ago, but she just forwarded it to me today.
Coincidence that I just so happen to get this today?
I think not…
I have such a good feeling about everything today.
Such a good feeling.
I'm finally going home…and we're going to be okay.
It's a faithful calm I'm feeling and it took these 3 little "signs" to bring me there.
Maybe I'm desperate to believe, maybe I was searching for them…
but honestly? I don't think so…
I think God knew I was getting a little worried and starting to doubt things…starting to doubt if this move would really happen. I think He knew I needed just a little bit of proof…
and as always, He gave me the answer before I even asked the question.
God Rocks.
And I can't wait to come home!!!
So I can't really get into this too much.
But I feel a little crappy. Just blah….resigned….why do I bother…..
I can't get into it because it's a general blah feeling, it's not aimed at anyone specific but I know it could be taken wrong so I'm just going to leave it vague.
There is something I am exceptionally good at. I take pride in it. I don't do this thing to get something back. I do it because it makes me feel good. I do it because I love the people I do it for. I do it because I know I put a smile on that person's face. I do it so people have "proof" they were thought of, even if just for a moment…
Now 99.9% of the time, I don't give this second thought, I don't ever do this to get it back.
But every once in awhile someone so blatantly and casually disregards (or just completely forgets which is even worse) this thing when it comes to me and/or my kids….and in very rare instances, it hurts.
It just feels crappy and makes me wonder why I bother doing it. And I wonder does anyone even friggin' care or notice? Would it even matter if I stopped doing it?
I just got stuck in this tailspin of blah today…it was a fantastic day, a really good day actually, but this blah thing, it's a really big deal to me and it just made my heart feel heavy all day.
I just need to sleep it off.
Good Night…
Fred and Helen are the owners of Domino's. Eric is Fred's brother and he is a manager there, along with Ceci. That's just a little name explanation….not that I'm going to talk about them right now, but I just realized I've been calling them "the owners of Domino's" and I just thought I should introduce them…lol.
Anyway, one of the guys at Domino's (Meeko…I think I spelled that wrong and I feel like total crap because I should know how to spell his name, he so kindly gives us a Christmas card every year) knows Lawyer Milloy, who used to play for the Patriots. When I first discovered this, I was like "Hey..that means I can do the 6 degrees of separation thing with Jon!" and I start figuring it out….
I know Meeko, Meeko knows Lawyer Milloy, who knows Bill Belichick (coach of Patriots), who is good friends with Jon Bon Jovi!! That's only like, what? 4!! Very, very cool.
Although I want to get closer.
Pigs.
Not that close.
I actually like that whole 6 degrees of separation thing….it's a cool concept and I always wonder just how true it is.
Okay, I'm off. I hate just forgotten about being only 4 degrees away from Jon and I was excited…I'm telling you, I'm super easy to entertain…But I've gotta get ready to go to the BBQ at the FBI guy's house.
Oh…I should give some history there too. Jaime has a classmate named Lindsay. Lindsay and her family moved here in the middle of the year, last school year. Lindsay has been coming over for playdates every Friday and Jaime really, really enjoys her. They have such a good time together and Lindsay is so stinkin' cute. I adore that little girl. We really like Lindsay's parents too. The couple of times we saw them during school functions we always walked away thinking they were really cool people. Anyway, it turns out Lindsay's dad is an FBI agent! His name is Ryan, but I keep calling him the FBI guy just cause I think it's so cool. So now my whole family and my friends are calling him "The FBI Guy" ha! Anyway, they invited us to their place for a BBQ and I am actually really excited to go. They seem super cool. It'll be nice to get to know them a little better.
Hopefully my kids don't do anything horribly bad…lol. Although it can't be any worse then Lindsay and Jaime stripping down to their underwear to play the "naked dance game"
LOL !!!
tah!
My brother cracks me up.
I get up this morning and turn on my computer and Marky im's me.
He was seeing if I was up cause he was going to come over.
This is part of the exchange..
LuthersnowAK:
I'm psychic.
JoeyK0022: ah. no you're not.
LuthersnowAK: I predict that in the next few minutes,
someone will walk through your door.
LuthersnowAK: hehehhehehe
LuthersnowAK: and you'll regret it.
JoeyK0022: LOL
JoeyK0022: I was SO going to say that.
JoeyK0022: I'm psychic too!!
LuthersnowAK: no…..psycho……it's not the same
thing
LuthersnowAK: just cuz you know your about to freak out
doesn't make you psychic
JoeyK0022: LOL
JoeyK0022: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Not a big deal and not *that* funny but he makes me laugh and it's the little things that matter.
It's just a nice way to start the day….someone making you laugh.
Anything But Gray 