Anything But Gray

Yay!!!

She's out of surgery and in recovery….she's in a lot of pain but the surgeon said it went well.
They were able to do the surgery laprascopically, which is awesome. 🙂
She'll be in recovery for about 5 hours.
Hopefully she'll call me when they get her up to her room.

I am so glad that's OVER with. ugh!
I know recovery is an important thing too, but it was mostly the surgery itself that I was worried about.
I'm relieved that's over with.

Yay! This is the first day of an amazing new life for my sister.
I am so happy for her!

🙂

My sister's husband Rick, just called my mom, who then called me.
They have just taken my sister into surgery.

Ugh…..

This is going to be the longest 2.5 hours of my entire life…..

It's weird…I know everything will be fine, they do thousands of these surgeries everyday and she is going to be just fine. I just wish I could be there. Although would it really make me feel any less nervous to be sitting in the waiting room there?   No, I don't think so.

Tic tock….I hate the stupid clock.

My sister is on her way into Boston to have her surgery this am.
I am nervous, of course and I want to talk to her before she arrives at the hospital.
I get up a 5am (thanks to Ben, actually….) and try to call her because I want to hear her voice before she goes into surgery…this is what I get…

"Sorry, we cannot complete your number as dialed…"
I think Okay, misdialed and I hang up and dial again.
Same thing.

THAT IS SO FRGGIN' ANNOYING!!!!
ugh!

If you are the praying kind, please put a prayer for my sister and her surgery.
Thanks!

I'm cooking dinner and as a side note, let me tell you I use the term "cooking" very, very lightly.
I am using the microwave to cook meatloaf.
With this power crisis in Juneau I realized that maybe I should try the microwave 14 minute approach rather than use the oven 60 minute approach….wish me luck, I have a feeling me and my family are going to need it.
Oh well….

Anyway, I got onto the computer and was just getting my daily fix of People and I see this headline…
Owen Wilson's weekend with Richie Sambora and Vince Vaughn

uh, I think to myself and click the link. I don't even read the story, I just stare at the pictures of the 3 of them and start daydreaming….What I would give to be in on that party!!!

First of all…Richie. He's hot, super sexy, funny and his voice is so very soulful…plus he's buds with Jon. Duh, no brainer.
Then you've got Owen Wilson. Funny is right up there with hot, for me. I would follow a man that can make me laugh just about anywhere….(hence being stuck in Alaska for 15 years….hubby is pretty damn funny, let me tell you!)
and then you've got Vince Vaughn, who is funny but even better has slept with Jennifer Aniston.
REPEATEDLY.
I would so sleep with Vince Vaughn for the simple fact that he has slept with Jennifer Aniston. I would get him drunk and BEG him to call her and see if we couldn't work out a little playdate or something. <wink>
Ha! In all seriousness….I have got a major girl crush on Jennifer Aniston and hanging out with people that "know" her would seriously make me a happy girl!

My head went into some seriously wicked daydreams…..with all kinds of scenarios….Richie could call Jon….and then….(insert totally perverted X-rated sex scene here....)
Or Vince could call Jen and then…..(insert totally perverted X-rated sex scene here…)
or Owen could call Jen and then…..

you get the idea….

And then…the stupid microwave beeped.
Totally wrecked everything….
<sigh>

Zachary used my camera to take some pictures for a client.
He had to go into the office and he asked me to get the pics off the camera and send him the best one.
This is the email that ensued….

This is what I sent from home to him at the office…

—–Original Message—–
From: zakandjoanna@gci.net [mailto:zakandjoanna@gci.net]
Sent: Friday, April 25, 2008 11:11 AM
To: zak32@alaska.com
Subject: here ya go…

Hi baby,

Here it is.

I love you.

Holy crap…it’s huge.

You can resize there, yes?

Hope so…LOL

Love you

Wife

xoxo

His reply?

From:

zak32@alaska.com
[mailto:zak32@alaska.com]
Sent: Friday, April 25, 2008 11:41 AM
To: zakandjoanna@gci.net
Subject: RE: here ya go…

Oh yes dear, I
can… on command.
love you

Husband

LOL
God, I love that man. He so makes me laugh. I am seriously laughing out loud…

Although I can't help but think, poor guy.
Cause if he's turning that email into something X rated, I think he needs to get laid or something…..LOL

Zak and I got home from date night and there are a bunch of boxes in Ben's room, who is sleeping in Jaime's room. (she has a bunk bed, so he sleeps in there sometimes..)
Travis must have brought them by for us.
So awesome!
Thank you!

but ….that means I actually have to start packing, huh?
I haven't been doing nothing, I've been going through stuff and organizing, preparing to pack…but I haven't had any boxes, so I haven't actually packed anything yet.
But now I have boxes. So now I have to do it.
That means it's going to feel for real.
Like "Holy fuck, we're really moving…"

ay-yi-yi…..I think need another drink.

It's been beautiful out…FINALLY…sunny, a bit warmer….love it and we're getting a lot done.

My sister informed me that today is our her father's birthday.
I say "I thought that was the day before Billiejo's birthday."
She says "It is. Billiejo's birthday is tomorow."
"Shit" I say….I've got my days all screwed up. I know it's because of my sister's surgery which is the 28th…but still, it annoyed me.
I guess Mom mentioned to my sister that today was our father's birthday and my sister apparently felt I should know too. I just thought to myself….
uh…I bet the fucker doesn't even remember when my birthday is.
Not that I really care, but it was just a funny thought.

I forgot my Tuesday thing again….and I don't have time to do it right now, but I just want to throw a little "i love" thing out there.
I love when my friends want to see my kids! lol It makes me feel good.
J and I were talking about our weekend when I come and "see" her face to face..FINALLY….and somehow we got onto the idea of maybe Zak, the kids and me all go up, Zak takes the kids around to do stuff while I visit with J and J says…"No…if you're kids are here, I want to see them." That made me feel SO good!! lol.
Funny, how it's the little things that make me feel so good. 🙂

I'm off to enjoy this sunshine.
I won't BORE you people….but if you want to go see a video for my favorite song from Bon Jovi's last album (who I get to see in concert at MADISON SQUARE GARDEN!!!!! in July when I go up to J's!) go here..click me!.….and down at the videos, click "whole lot of leaving going on"
Very cool!!!

tah!

I wake up.
I slip out of bed and quietly leave the bedroom.
I walk past Jaime's room.
I glance in and look at the empty bed.
Then I pass Ben's room.
I peek in his room and look at his empty bed.
I start the coffee and sit down to wait for it to finish and I take a deep breath and sigh.
I miss them.
I feel alone. Not lonely, mind you, but alone.
And this doesn't feel as good as I thought it would feel, to be honest.
And then I think…..wow…this must be what it's going to feel like when they grow up and go to college and leave us.
It just feels alone. There's a feeling of….well, crap…what do I do now? lol.

Last night was the very first time the kids were both gone. My awesome niece Kayla, invited them over to her house for a sleep over and let me tell you, were they PSYCHED and couldn't wait. We were excited too because it was the first time in 7 years…first time since Jaime's been born that we got the house to ourselves for a whole night. We've always had people come here to watch the kids. And this is Ben's first true sleep over. I am so happy for them, but there is a part of me that was a teeny bit sad. I think it's the moment when you are realize your "babies" are now "kids" and have a life all their own.

Next time I think I will enjoy it more. This time there was a little feeling of mommy saying bye to one stage of their lives and hello to another.
Next time…..then it'll be more fun and exciting for me. lol.

It's so unreal how fast they grow….how quick time goes by.

Last weekend I finished a couple of little things that I had been working on…

Friends quote canvas (5)

Friends quote canvas (4)

I so LOVE how this came out!! What's funny is I had already painted the canvas with the intentions of using it for something else. The quote is a rubber stamp I bought when I was back east. When I got back I knew was going to use that stamp with that paper (the 2 women with coffee) and I pulled out the paper to start working on it and realized the paper matched the canvas PERFECTLY. I love when everything just works…..love it.

Bon jovi lyric the end (5)

Bon jovi lyric the end (2)

So my niece Kayla and I were emailing back and forth this morning about babysitting tonight and she sends me this gem…

Yeah, let’s wait and
see. We’ve got windows so I can check every now and
then.

Yesterday I went all
the way to the valley and hungout with a friend at his house.. and right when I
was about to go home it started being all blizzard-crazy and I was pretty much
stuck there. I was scared I was going to end up being stuck there all
night.

Thursdays have come to
be the days I usually end up using leave for sleeping in or just staying home..
and today I promised to be on time and not call in or anything like that…
So
I’m convinced Mother Nature is just trying to bring me down.
What is she on?
Her period?

hahaha
jk.

But it SUCKED this
morning.

My alarm clock didn’t
go off.
But I woke up at
735, and that’s not bad since I don’t have to head to work until about 750. 

It did suck not being able to shower though.

But Today is
the day I’m supposed to be ON TIME…

So I’m all confident
that I woke up and was ready…
and open my door….

….and I can barely
even see my car!

That made me so
angry.

and the fact that Josh
left his window cracked a bit, so the passenger seat was snowed on…
and when
I got in the car.. I started it.. .got out to wipe all the snow off… and when I
did.. a buttload of snow just plopped onto my seat!

And THEN…. when I try
wiping it off… a buttload of snow went onto my back and down my pants and all
that.

Horrible, horrible
morning.

Then I almost rear end
a car.. because they’re going kinda fast and randomly everyone decides to
stop

and I was paying
attention to my windshield wipers…. so then I hit the brakes a little
late.

My windshield wiper..
will work fine.. but then out of nowhere…
it’ll go… and KEEP GOING…. onto
the driver side window!

So then I have to put
my hand out there and kind of stop it…

So not only is my ass
wet, my hand is freezing while I’m looking like an idiot with it just chillin on
the windshield.

SO ghetto my car is. 🙂

haha…

Isn’t it supposed to be
summer?

love
you

MOST