Anything But Gray

Ben gets up this morning and goes down to the couch.
Jaime is sitting on the other couch, eating her cereal and Ben says to me
"Mommy, can I have colored cereal too?"
I tell him.."Of course babe, I'll get it for you."
Ben says "Mommy, am I going to school today?"
I say…"You sure are, sweetie…"
Ben says…."Yay!"

I love it.

He's doing so much better than we anticipated and it's such a good feeling. I love seeing him excited to go to school. It makes us happy.

It's only been a few days….so I'm cautious….but I do believe the transition from daycare to school is a success!!

So I've been gone from the computer for a few days.

We were supposed to go to the Cape. Well on Friday at around noon my sister calls me and says "you know what? I'm gonna take the kids with me, you pack them up, get them ready to go and then we'll take off. Billiejo's going to have so many people there she won't even notice you and Zak didn't come" And I am thinking SWEET!
It was only the second time in the kids' lives that we've been alone overnight without them. It was awesome!!!
Billiejo totally understood and was cool. That made it so I actually enjoyed myself and didn't feel guilty. lol.

We didn't do anything major, went to the mall, browsed a bit, sat at home and enjoy the peace and quiet and talked with Kayla and Josh for a bit. Then Saturday I did some browsing in some stores on my own because Zak went to work. Then we went down to Fitchburg and hung out. Zak and I took off for a ride for a little bit and I took him up to the towers. That was really, really fun. <wink>

Then Sunday we went looking at cars and when we got back here, the kids and my sister were back so we hung with the bratlings for a bit and then we started getting stuff done. We did a bunch of yard work and it's looking good!! I'm psyched. I can't wait to finish it today. We had run to Home Depot to get a matt for the backdoor because the dirt that gets tracked in is terrible! I could sweep 3 times a day and still not keep up with it. We get the matts and then I see this frog statue in the garden center. He was the CUTEST thing ever!!! So Zak got him for me. I love him!
I'll get pics later!

So needless to say, it's been a crazy weekend and just a whirlwind of stuff. But I like being busy and I like getting stuff done, so it all works out just fine for me!

So Ben's first day went fantastic!!
We actually cannot believe how well he did.
He walked in there like he'd been going to school his whole life.
Unbelievable.
I am so, so happy for him and I so hope he keeps on loving it.
We walked him to the class, met the teacher and off he went…no looking back, no wondering if we were there or not….not a care in the world about us. lol.
So we leave and get in the car and I kind of tear up a little….just a little moment of "my babies are both in school….no more babies at home…" and Zak looks at me and says "You okay?" and I tell him "Yeah, just having a moment." And he says "Denny's?" and I say "let's go…."  We both love Denny's and haven't gotten to go since we've been here….

And so for the first time in months, Zak and I went and ate and had a quiet meal. So friggin' wonderful. It's funny how you can be together every day and wind up so busy and so hectic that you actually "miss" each other. I miss working with him and just having adult conversations with him. He's truly my best friend and when we don't get a lot of alone time I wind up missing him….so it was really, really nice to take advantage of the fact both the kids were in school and just go have a nice, quiet conversation. Made me focus on the GOOD part of them being gone to school and not the paniced "oh my god, my kids are growing up." part.

My card reader is still not working on my computer, so I can't post pics….but I will soon!

and she did fantastic!
Well….so says her, anyway….LOL

Seriously…she hasn't talked much about it. Just said she liked it and she had fun. I'm letting her chill for a bit and then I'll grill her later, when Zak gets home.

She forgot her lunch bag. grrr….lol. But because BEN GOT INTO THE KINDERGARTEN IN THAT SCHOOL….I'll be there first thing in the am and I"ll go down to her class to find it. 🙂
Isn't that awesome, Ben got in?? I am so, so happy.
And I can't believe Ben's first day of school is TOMORROW.
My son is going to SCHOOL.
My boy.
My pain in the butt but oh, how I love him boy is leaving me to go to SCHOOL.
I am so stinkin' excited and nervous and just….aarrgghhhh! lol.
So overwhelmed by it all.

They are so growing up on me. I went into the school with Jaime this morning because I wanted to make sure she found her classroom okay and everything. Once we got her classroom she turns and says to me, "You can go now." I'm like "I want to meet your teacher, Jaime." So I talk to the teacher and let her know we just moved to Nashua from Alaska and all that…and Jaime says to me "Okay…now, you can go."  What the hell! My 7 year old daughter just kicked me out of her classroom! pfftttt…whatever.
It was cute. But it did give me a little pang on oh my gosh, she's growing up.

They both are.
With all the drama of trying to get them in the same school and a good school, I hadn't been focusing on the fact that Ben is starting school tomorrow! I can't believe it! It's hitting me all of a sudden and it just feels…I don't know….weird.
No more babies at home…..

This mood will last probably until I get home from dropping him off tomorrow and then I'll relish in the freedom of 2 hours and I'll alternate between loving it and missing my kids.
Crazy, isn't it?

Jaime starts school tomorrow!
YAY!!!!!
I am so freakin' excited it's not even funny. lol.
We're still up in the air with the boy. As of right now the Kindergarten class is full at the school Jaime is going to, but they think there will be an opening but they have to wait until a certain point, to confirm it. So we should know by Wednesday what's up for Ben. ARGGGHH!!!! I hate waiting! lol. keep your fingers crossed that they get an opening! I really don't want them going to different schools.

It was a crazy weekend, again. But it was fun. Zak and I finally got to go out, just us. With Kayla and Josh here, we have someone to hang with the kids so we can get out and go do something. And do something we did. lol.
Saturday night was Shelly's bday party and so we drove up to her house and had a blast.
At one point, Zak was sitting and I was standing behind him (I was on his lap but the fire got too hot) and I looked up at the sky. The little dipper was big and bright and right on the horizon, it was just above the rooftops of the houses in the neighborhood. That really threw me. That is so not where the little dipper is supposed to be. I went around to the front of the house because it was just so overwhelming and with the added alcohol, I knew I was probably going to cry. lol.
So I was trying to pull myself together before I completely fell apart and I couldn't do it. Sitting on Shelly's front porch, staring at the sky and thinking…."the stars are not where they are supposed to be….". It just made me miss Ceci so bad. It made me not so much miss Alaska, but gave me just this weird unsettled feeling. It's so hard to describe. But it just didn't feel "right".  So I call Ceci and of course that makes it a million times worse. lol 
But we talked for a few minutes and then Shelly and Steve came around front to see what was up and we just all chatted. They pointed out that how I was feeling right that minute was how they felt when I left them. It actually made me feel good….just being friends with them still and knowing how much they care about me and how happy they are that I'm back….it just felt nice. Zak came around front too and a couple other people and it wound being okay.
I felt like an idiot….there's always one sobbing, blubbering mess at a party and I'm a little annoyed that is was me this time….but then, I'm impressed that it's taken me that long to have a meltdown. lol.
All in all it was an awesome party and Zak and I had a blast.
We got home at 2am  and didn't go to sleep until 3am….and then idiot I am got up at 6:30am.
I wound up taking a nap later and got through the day just fine.
Kayla hung with the kids and Zak and I went out to the store and that was cool.

Today is a crazy busy day. I have to get Jamie's bangs cut and get her some more school stuff. Shoes…the kid needs shoes so bad. Oh and a backpack. That would help, huh? lol.

Ooooh!!! AND my mom is pretty much definitely coming!!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY MOMMY TO BE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
🙂

more later!

This is HYSTERICAL.
Seriously.

This is so something Zak and I would do to each other!
I'd kill him, mind you, but it IS something he would do to me.

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I know you're dying laughing.
You're welcome!

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