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  • September 22.

    Jaime and Daddy's date night went fabulous…..she had an absolute blast and so did he.
    I snapped a quick picture of them as they were leaving. It was on my phone, so it's not the best, but it's the point of it…(I have GOT to get Zak to fix my card reader!!!)

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    They went to a cool park in Merrimack and to Burger King. Last night Zak says to me…"She was in love today…." and he was talking about Jaime and their date. I asked him "What do you mean? What was she doing?" and he says how she just kept looking at him and saying.."This is the  best day ever." and "This is the best day of my whole life."
    How stinkin' sweet is that?? He's goign to do that more, it takes such little effort and it makes her so, so happy to spend time with just Daddy and her. I love it. 🙂

    Football was just awful yesterday!
    What the hell happened to my team???
    Unbelievable!

    I got the shock of my life yesterday….
    my cell rings…I look at the screen and it's…get this….you're not going to believe it….I couldn't believe it…..it was David.
    Of David and Wanda.
    Yeah!
    Weird, huh?
    Scared the crap out of me at first, I thought something was wrong with someone, for sure.
    But everything was fine……
    I cannot believe he called me!
    I guess he even told Wanda…"she's gonna shit…"
    Yeah, ya think???
    ha!

    And today, is my kind of birthday.
    Ceci, because she is such an awesome friend, gave me a new birthday, years and years ago….I was saying I hate my birthday and I should get a new one. So we made a new one for me. September..my favorite month and 22…my favorite number. ha!
    Sometimes we celebrate it, sometimes we don't….this year she sent me $ for Ben's bday and she sent more than she normally would because she wanted me to go out and buy a bottle of kahoola for myself for my birthday.
    How awesome is she??

    I got to talk to Alaska Kim this weekenad and that was really nice, although I felt like the conversation wasn't done. lol. She had to get going, and we were going to try each other back, but it never worked out. I'll have to call her again soon, I so miss her. And I love just chatting with her..catching up and stuff. It's nice.

    It was a busy, great weekend and now I gotta gear up for the week!
    Fun.
    ha!

  • part of the family…

    Yesterday, the kids and I went up to Shelly's house for Kaden's birthday party. Kaden is Shelly's son.
    The kids had a blast and I had a really good time too.
    Shelly's sister and her family were there. And her mom came too.
    I haven't seen her sister or her mom in like 17 years, so that was really nice.
    Her mom made me feel good.
    She sees me and she says.."You look good! Is that what Alaska does to you? You come back looking like that?" I give her another hug and I"m like "I love you….I just want to keep you cause all my mom ever does is criticize how I look in way or another…" LOL !
    Seriously, it was nice of her to say that and it made me feel really good.

    All of the adults migrated (all I think of is the Mariah song when I use that word now….it's so totally playing in my head right now!) to the front porch and the kids all wound up in the woods. As we were sitting around bullshitting, Shelly and I look at each other and we are like "whoa…..okay, never thought this would happen!" The fact that our children play together always weirds me and Shell out a little….and then you throw in her sister's kids to the mix and it's REALLY like whoa! lol. Just funny how things wind up. A nice funny.

    The kids had a blast and it was pretty uneventful….just nice.
    Nice to spend time with Shelly and her family….
    Nice to feel like I fit it in, just fine. 🙂

    Zachary wound up walking/jogging to and from work yesterday. 3.5 miles each way.
    That guy is crazy!
    Nah, he's awesome. He motivates me and inspires me.
    And for me, everytime he walks out that door to work out…..I feel like that's one extra day I get to be with him because he's keeping himself fit and healthy. I love it.

    I'd like to start getting into running….maybe next summer. Maybe I'll get off my ass this winter and start walking and move up to running…..I dunno, we'll see.

    It's football day!!!
    Oh and Jaime and Daddy are having a "date night" this morning.
    How cute is that??? lol

  • So sad….

    Although I am not a fan of either of these people…this made me gasp out loud and feel so, so bad.

    DJ AM and Travis Barker

    This is so awful…beyond words awful.
    I think being severely burned is the most horrific injury a person can suffer….I'm so hoping it's not as bad as it seems, wishful thinking, I know…but I can't help it.

    Such a tragedy.

  • Orion.

    While I lived in Alaska there were a few things that were "home" to me.
    Things that no matter what, they reminded me of living here.
    The constellation Orion is one of them.

    When I was about 17 years old I was parked with Kirk, here.

    Cogshall park
    Cogshall park

     

    In Cogshall Park.  As we were leaving the park, he stopped his truck and looked up at the sky. He pointed and said "Do you see those 3 stars in a row?" And I looked and I said.."yeah, what's that?" He said "That's Orioin and that's how you find him…you look for the 3 stars in a row, that is his belt."  And I was mesmerized by it. I had never known about Orion. I had never even heard about it.

    At the time, it was something that reminded me of Kirk. I would always look for Orion and when I would find him, it would make me feel closer to Kirk. Around the same time, this song came out.

    13 Arms of Orion Prince 1
    13 Arms of Orion Prince 1
    And that just sealed the deal.
    Orion and this song became synonomous with Kirk.

    But then when I moved….it started to remind me of more than just Kirk. First and foremost it always makes me think of Kirk but as time went on, it started to remind me of my crazy nights in Cogshall….being young….warm September nights….and home. Up until I moved back here, it was an untouchable touchstone for me. I would look for him when I was lonely…when I was homesick…when I missed my friends….when I missed Kirk.  Just seeing it would make me feel better…..
    "at least we're underneath the same big sky…."

    This morning, I stepped outside to smoke.
    It was still dark and I look up at the sky.
    And the very first thing I see….those 3 stars in a row.
    There he is, I think…..and I smile.

    I am home. 

  • Happy Birthday Kim!!

    It's my friend Kim's birthday and I, as seems to be the story this year, did not get her card in the mail…yet.
    I have not gotten into my "groove" as far as gifts, cards, etc and it's making me feel like a jerk.
    I am so good with cards and gifts that it is utterly disgusting at how bad I've been.
    But I'm hoping that all the times I have been good will earn me some credits and this bad year will get forgotten. Or at least forgiven…

    Happy, Happy Birthday Kim, I miss you and so wish I could be there to celebrate with you!!! If you aren't too busy, Maybe I'll call you later and we'll "have a long distance drink" !!!
    Love you!

  • QotD: Home Sweet Home

    What is your definition of home?
    Submitted by

    naynay72

    Home to me?

    Here.

    Where I'm at.

    FINALLY!!!!! 

    To me home is the place that is familiar…the place that evokes comfort when you think of it….the place where you have roots….

    the place where I have people that couldn't wait for me to get back here….people that waited 17 years for me and counted down the days with me….the place I have always imagined raising my kids…..the place where I imagined I would grow old with my husband beside me…..the place where I feel like I belong….where I feel like I fit in.

  • It’s official….

    he's gone….for the season.

    And to quote someone on a Patriots message board….

    fuck it, we're the underdogs now!

    It actually made me laugh and really, that's a whole lot less stressful than the whole undefeated saga of last season!

    Go Matt!!!!

  • and down he goes….

    As I'm sure everyone who doesn't live under a rock has heard, Tom Brady got injured yesterday.
    So bad that he was out the rest of the game.
    And there are reports (none official, yet) that he will be out for the season.

    Unbelievable!

    I was poking around online last night, trying to find out how serious the injury was and I went to a couple of different message boards and had to shut them down.

    People were joyous…gleeful….happy….at the news of Tom Brady's injury.
    And then I see this today……they cheered.
    I know it's the haters. And they will keep on hating and they are reveling in this….
    But it made me so sad.
    As much as I despise…no loathe…the Giants because I simply do not believe they were a Super Bowl caliber team and yet they beat MY team….I would never, ever wish an injury on one of the players. No friggin' way. Nor would I revel in it, if someone vital to the team did get injured. Frankly, I'd rather have them all healthy and playing their best and then beat the crap out of them. That would be way more rewarding.

    As soon as he didn't come back in the game, I knew it. I just knew the haters would revel in it.
    I guess I'm just sad to see it actually came true.

  • whoaaa…..

    like seriously whoooaaa…

    there are some things in your life that you just (Holy fuck…i cannot believe how good I am typoing….)never, ever, EVER anticiapte happening….

    me, zak, niki, rick, kayla, josh, shelly….all sitting aroudn outside at night…drinking, partying.
    laughing, joking, giving each other shit.
    my sister absolutely shitfaced. (I've never seen that…)
    then my cousin Seany calls….

    just fucking wierd ass night.

    so utterly cool….
    warm summer night, drinking with people you love and just laughing and having a blast.
    I fucking LOVE September.

    awesome, awesome, happy, fun night.

    There was definately some poeple that were missed, as always…..
    but it's so funny how life changes….so weird how things wind up.

    I wish I wasn't so tired…I'd be calling some people.
    Ceci
    JRoar…
    Kim…
    I'll just have to say good night here and say
    YOU ARE MISSED!!!!

    And on that note…you are missed and since it is officially September 6th because it is 2:27am.

    Happy Birthday Dad, we miss you so, so much.
    It never gets easier…and I barely knew you.
    I'll be thinking of you today and hoping they party up in heaven and you're having a blast….and I know you're with us, in spirit. We love you!!!  

    Love,
    me

  • Spoke too soon….

    So Ben's transition to school IS going well and it has been a success.
    However we have it a couple of little bumps, apparently.

    On Tuesday, Ben threw a chair.
    He was in the circle with all his classmates and he kept trying to sit in their laps.
    The teacher told him 3 times to stop and of course, he didn't. When the kids don't listen, they get sent to a chair to sit in, away from the kids. Not in a corner or anything, but away from the group. Well, Ben didn't like that, so he threw the chair. The principal  came down to talk to him. (nice.)

    The teacher told me about it when I picked him up and I he had had a  bad morning, so I just knew something like that was going to happen. She said he was fine otherwise, but just had that moment.

    Well, me, Zak, Jaime, Kayla and Ben all go to Jaime's open house that night and as we're walking out, the principal says "Hey Ben, how are you doing?" And I say to the principal…"Nice, that's just nice…3 days in and you know his name!" LOL And we all start laughing….

    Yesterday Zak and I pick him and the teacher AND the principal come over to talk to us. They said he had a great, great morning but he didn't want to come in for recess. He had some sticks that he didn't want to part with and kind of gave them a hard time about coming in.

    So yeah…I maybe might've spoke just a wee bit too soon. LOL

    The teachers are fine and they are saying it's fine, they are just letting us know about this stuff, but it's not a big deal and really, I did anticipate some issues for Ben and school…so we're taking it in stride and just keeping our fingers crossed that he adjusts soon.

    And really, the principal knowing your name after only 3 days of school isn't necessarily a bad thing, right?
    <wink>