Anything But Gray

I realized a little something about myself last night…..

I'd rather hate you, than need you, when the feeling is not mutual….

I can't feel like I"m constantly the one needing someone else and then never feeling like that "need" is reciprocated. Can't do it. Won't do it.

I always say it takes a lot to get in, with me. And it does..it's true. But once you are IN….it is equally as hard to get back out! You can burn me, hurt me, break my heart five thousand times and I don't kick your ass (even though I SHOULD) to the curb. When it comes to people I love, I believe in 10,000 second chances.

But apparently….you CAN'T not need me, need something only I can give you or something that you can only get from me.  At least once in awhile…..

You just can't.

Well, you can…..but this is what you wind up with.

It's so much easier to hate you than love you…..
so. much. easier.