Anything But Gray

the last day has just been so full of  incredible "feel good" moments….

I have these days only once in awhile and I call them my "Oh come let us adore me" days!!! LOL 

J and I have a plan to meet, finally…..and here wanting to meet my family, her wanting Jaime to go to the concert with us, her wanting to get to share a "first" with me and my daughter…..her saying…"of course I want to meet your family!" as if I would be crazy to think she wouldn't want them to come…..this is huge for me. My family is an extension of me, obviously…she loves me so much that she wants to meet the people most important to me. And I know this….of course she would want to meet them!!….but to hear her say it. And to hear her excited about me coming….and wanting my family to come…..it's just been a really amazing feeling. It makes me realize just how "big" our friendship really is……AND she has told me a couple of times in recent days that my advice has been spot on……and THAT makes me so happy, to know that my advice really helped!  🙂

I am part of a women's group…..it's a group of 6 of us.  A childhood family friend of mine…..she's more like a cousin…..started it.  It has been such a wonderful thing to have, this group. It has been enlightening and so, so fun! And I got a huge pat on the back last night…..for my writing, for my personality and for my passion…..just about all the things that I really love about myself, was appreciated and holy cow,  did that feel GOOD. I could really go on and on about this because it is just so, so gratifying and humbling to have the parts of you that you happen to really like, liked and to be told that?? Amazing!!! AND it makes me want to WRITE more! LOL I second guess my writing, at times…like maybe it's actually not that great….or it's not "good" enough….am I really making people feel what I am saying? Are people "getting" it? Are they getting me? And over the last week and with last night's email….I have got so mnay validations that yeah….I'm doing things just fine! 🙂

I have been teasing Shelly about changing her birthday party for me. And through this teasing, it's making me see just how close we are. There aren't many people I would be able to say…."come on! change your birthday party, you know you won't have as much fun without me…." to, without feeling like I'm being a spoiled brat. LOL But with her….it's really true! and while I AM being a brat…..I'm diggin' that I can be "me" with her. I can ask her that and know she "gets" it……and the feeling is mutual. I would not have as much fun at my birthday party, without HER. This whole thing is just making me realize how well she knows me and just how close we are……funny how distance did not change a thing….we have fallen right back into our friendship as if I never left……

And then, as I was driving home last nigt, it was thundering and lightening BAD. Like briliant lighting that was blinding me, it was so bright! The thunder was just so incredibly LOUD. And it was POURING buckets….it was actually a little scary. I was driving and just wanting to get home so badly…..I had about 4 minutes of the drive left…..and "Joey" came on…..as corny as it is……it made me feel like Ceci and J were "with" me for those last few minutes…..and all of a sudden, I was lost in thoughts of both of them and before I knew it, I was pulling in my driveway. 🙂

Right before I pulled in…there was an exceptionally HUGE crack of thunder.  I was just amazed at how loud it was…..so I park (I always back the truck in…even in a torrential downpour…OCD anyone?) text Shelly to let her know I was home and I rush into the house…..

to find my mommy upstairs, looking to see if I had made it home. Because she was worried with the storm….

I don't care how old you are, having your mommy waiting for you to come in late at night, makes you feel so loved…..

:And then this morning….I check my facebook and someone that I know pretty well up in Alaska, was "missing" me last night….now I miss her and have since we left but she isn't someone I would think would really "miss" me……surprises are a wonderful, wonderful thing!!!! LOL

Life is good…..really, really good sometimes!!! And I love to blog about these times so that during the "crappy" times, I can come back and read this and remember I have SO MUCH to be happy about and grateful for!!!!