Anything But Gray

Today is Danielle's birthday…..
Yesterday was Cierra's.
I did not send a card for either one of them.

Why not, you ask?

Let me explain….

When we first moved, my stuff was packed so I got behind on my cards. Then it was just too damn hot to work downstairs in my studio.  Then Kayla and Josh moved in and I just never seemed to make my creative schedule jive with their "home" schedule. Then financially things were tough and stressful and I just wasn't there…my creative vibe was sunk. I just couldn't turn off the stress and relax and create. It was like writer's block. I was just stuck.

Well over the last month or so, I can feel the wheels turning and I am getting my vibe back and I am ecstatic, elated, thrilled…all of the above. But I had decided that I would go a full year without any cards, that way everyone didn't get one from me, for a year. I already talked about this a few  blog entries ago….but let me elaborate a bit. I would've felt horrible if some people got a card and some people didn't. As if my card creating and sending is some measure of my love for them. Get it? It makes sense to me…..LOL

Well the middle of June will be a year and I will start sending cards again…I even have a whole new person to make one for (Hi Drew!!!) so I am pretty excited and very eager to get back to being "me".

But this month is tough….cause I've got the urge and desire and ambition to make cards and get them sent, but I want to stick to my year without thing…but because I really want to make some cards, missing these two birthday's is really, really breaking my heart. I mean, missing them all has broke my heart but these two are especially tough.

My card making is so me. It is so inherently me. It's like a part of me, to remember everyone's birthday and make and send a card. It is just who I am and what I'm about. Everyone should be remembered on their birthday, everyone should be praised and celebrated and it is so very important to me that I let the people I love know I am celebrating them and just their existence on their birthdays….and it's been a tough year, having that part of me vanish. BUT…thankfully it's over!!! Yay!!!

Happy, Happy Birthday Danielle!! I hope you eat TONS of cake cause you've got a good excuse to this year!!! And the baby needs some too! LOL I miss you!!

Happy, Happy Birthday Cierra!! I miss your face sweetie and Jaime misses you tons too!! We all miss you! We hope your day was awesome!!!! Love you!!!!

And let me just apologize here for all the not gotten cards…I remembered you, I thought of you and I love you. You just don't have tangible proof of it, this year. But I so hope everyone knows how much they were thought of on their days!!!