Anything But Gray

like you're on the verge of something….but you can't quite put your finger on it.
It's an unsettled, waiting breathless for the next moment kind of feeling….and you don't know if it's good or bad.
But you feel change coming…you feel something that is going to change your life is in your path.
And because you don't know if it's good or bad, you don't know if you should change your course.
If you should keep on going or veer frantically away….and if you do opt to veer….which way? Left or Right?

That's kind of where I'm at and have been for a little while.
I don't know what to make of it and I've tried to shrug it off, tried to ignore it.
But it's nagging and relentless and it's making me weary because it makes me feel on edge constantly. It makes me overthink things. It, quite frankly, is driving me fucking crazy.

Whatever "it" is, I wish it would just happen already…..you know?

The last time I felt like this, to this extent..nothing actually happened. Nothing that I could see, anyway.
So every once in awhile…my "gut" feeling, fails me…so I'm not even all that certain that what I'm feeling is "right".

all I can do is wait…..