Anything But Gray

This has been a really good weekend and it's not even over.
Although the Patriots are playing right now and it's an important game.
So talk to me after the game and we'll see how I feel then….this game has the potential to totally ruin my weekend.

Shelly and I have fallen into an out on Thursday night routine.
We meet up in Fitchburg and we just hang out, like we used. Sometimes we'll go to the mall or go eat or do some errands first and then we hang out down John Fitch for a bit with Steve and whoever else happens to be around and then we go cruise around and listen to music and chat. It's a lot of fun and I love doing it.  We had to change the day last week because of Thursday night football. So I went Friday with her instead.  I never party when I'm down in Fitchburg because I have to drive home. And if I have to drive I don't drink, at all. Maybe once in awhile I'll have one beer, but that's it. For me it's just I'd rather be safe than sorry. A couple of times I've had a few beers early in the night (7ish) and by the time I drive home (usually midnight or so) I'm completely fine. Realizing that, I decided I wanted to hae a few beers this week when I was out and I did. It was nice to be able to have a few beers without stressing out.
So I did that….Shelly and I went to visit her son at his new job (she brought him a snack, what a mom, huh?) and then we met Steve down John Fitch. Bob was down there too and an old friend of Shelly's. We all hung out and had a really good time. I stayed out later than normal because it was Friday and it was fun. We blasted my ipod in Shelly's car and Shelly and I were messing around dancing the way we used to and man, it was fun. Back in the day, when I Shelly and I were hanging out and cruising around if a good song came on the radio, we didn't care where we were….we stopped and got out and danced. That's just how we were and Friday night reminded me of that. Loved it!!!

I tried to call Kim (Alaska Kim) on the way home but she was asleep, which was a bummer. I really wanted to talk to her. I was missing her. I knew I would miss Kim when we moved but even I have been taken by surprise by how often I miss her and how many times I have thought "Boy, I wish Kim were here….". Kim is a blast and no matter what we were doing, I always really enjoyed my time with her. We could be walking and we'd have a great conversation or we could be at the bar and we'd just have a blast partying…..it just didn't matter what we did, it was fun doing it with Kim. My kids love her, Zak really likes her a lot and when she would stop by the house on Saturday mornings or something, she just fit. We had fallen into a very comfortable relationship over the years and apparently even I didn't realize how much I enjoyed my time with her. LOL  She wound up calling me back on Saturday morning and we had a really nice conversation. It was good to hear her voice and chat for a bit. The kids actually left me alone the whole time too, so that was very cool. I told her a litte bit of how much I have been missing her and I hope I didn't sound too mushy…lol.
Nah, I know Kim gets it and I'm pretty positive she misses me just as much, so it's all good.
So that conversation made me feel really good….and then this morning I have a conversation with Steve.

Steve got a job offer this summer and he told me that one of the big reasons he didn't take it was because of…..me. He would've had to have moved to Michigan. When he told me about the job offer I was honest with him. I told him I would obviously support whatever he decided to do, but if he left I would be heartbroken. I would've been so mad at life. It would've been tough for me because it just would've made me angry….not at Steve but at the circumstances. I would've thought to myself a thousand times…."what the hell is this shit? I finally move back home and now he leaves??"  It would've bugged me so bad. And that made me feel really good, that he actually based a big decision like that on me….for me. I am so lucky with my friends and that is exactly why I don't let go once I love….because once I have someone that I know would do anything for me, I don't treat that lightly….
Some people go through life and don't wind up having many good friends, somehow I got lucky enough to have quite a few of them…and I don't take that for granted.
Thank you Steve…..I'm so glad you stayed.

and on that bunch of mushiness…I'm off to enjoy the rest of my feel good weekend! LOL

And really, even if the Patriots lose today, I'm still going to be pretty darn happy.