Anything But Gray

We all have them.
I just so happen to blessed with 2…well, maybe 3.
I'll share….

• Heights. absolutely completely terrified. Paralyzingly terrified. To the point that when we take the kids to the mall and we are walking on the second floor and the kids walk beside the railing (that looks down to the first floor) and run their hands along it, it stresses me out….bad.
• The dark. I don't know that this is a phobia, really. I just get really scared and really want a friggin' light on, but it's not a fear like the heights thing is.
• Going into a small anything..(business, store, shop..anything.) that I've never been in before. And driving a road that I've never driven by myself, before. 

The 3rd one is the one that is really starting to piss me off. It is starting to affect my life. Living in Alaska, it didn't really affect my life, at all, so I didn't have to worry about it. But now, living here? Yeah…it's starting to get in the way. To the point that I'm missing out on things because of it. It is the most bizarre thing to be afraid of and I don't really understand why, which of course pisses me off even more. Ever the analytical one, I simply must know where this stems from, in order to overcome it. <sigh> Whatever.

I just need to get the hell over it!

I think just by doing the very thing I'm afraid of more, will help. So I'm on a mission to drive somewhere I've never driven before, by myself and to go into a couple of places that I've never been in before, by myself.  Hopefully it'll only take a couple of times before my stupid irrational brain will realize that, "hey…we went in there and we SURVIVED! <gasp>! 
LOL

Yeah..my irrational brain is not too bright.