Anything But Gray

a thousand thoughts…..a thousand emotions….a million memories….and why, why, why…over and over and over.  Why, what?
Do you have all night?

yeah….didn't think so.  Nor do I.

the best you give….is not enough.  No matter how awesome, how great, how wonderful, how loyal, how considerate, how kind, how empathetic…..just no matter how great you are, you are letting someone down. You cannot be all things to all people all the time. And the more people you let in, the higher the likelihood is that you are disappointing someone….it's just inevitable…..and the more people you let in, the higher the likelihood that someone will break your heart. That is inevitable too.

Hurt.
Hurt is inevitable.
How you deal?
That's another story.

I'm good…..I just can't reign the emotions in, yet I can't seem to write them out either… too much at once and I can't make anything make sense. Or make it so it belongs in the same song…lol. I think I've got about 10 different lyrics in my head….ugh.

 
This is the first song that made me cry over you, without the aid of alcohol. lol.
You know who you are…..I'm remembering……you have always loved me exactly the way I am. You have never wanted anything to change about me. No matter what anyone thinks or says……you are a true friend and I know you are there for me, no matter what. Thank you. For being you…for being there. For letting me be me and not expecting more than I could ever give…..you waited. Patiently. Why, I'll never know….but thank you.

and on that note, I think I should go to bed.
The wobbly pops (that's a kirk word, by the way) are working and I need to weeble wobble my fat ass to BED.

nighty night!