Anything But Gray

Jaime starts school tomorrow!
YAY!!!!!
I am so freakin' excited it's not even funny. lol.
We're still up in the air with the boy. As of right now the Kindergarten class is full at the school Jaime is going to, but they think there will be an opening but they have to wait until a certain point, to confirm it. So we should know by Wednesday what's up for Ben. ARGGGHH!!!! I hate waiting! lol. keep your fingers crossed that they get an opening! I really don't want them going to different schools.

It was a crazy weekend, again. But it was fun. Zak and I finally got to go out, just us. With Kayla and Josh here, we have someone to hang with the kids so we can get out and go do something. And do something we did. lol.
Saturday night was Shelly's bday party and so we drove up to her house and had a blast.
At one point, Zak was sitting and I was standing behind him (I was on his lap but the fire got too hot) and I looked up at the sky. The little dipper was big and bright and right on the horizon, it was just above the rooftops of the houses in the neighborhood. That really threw me. That is so not where the little dipper is supposed to be. I went around to the front of the house because it was just so overwhelming and with the added alcohol, I knew I was probably going to cry. lol.
So I was trying to pull myself together before I completely fell apart and I couldn't do it. Sitting on Shelly's front porch, staring at the sky and thinking…."the stars are not where they are supposed to be….". It just made me miss Ceci so bad. It made me not so much miss Alaska, but gave me just this weird unsettled feeling. It's so hard to describe. But it just didn't feel "right".  So I call Ceci and of course that makes it a million times worse. lol 
But we talked for a few minutes and then Shelly and Steve came around front to see what was up and we just all chatted. They pointed out that how I was feeling right that minute was how they felt when I left them. It actually made me feel good….just being friends with them still and knowing how much they care about me and how happy they are that I'm back….it just felt nice. Zak came around front too and a couple other people and it wound being okay.
I felt like an idiot….there's always one sobbing, blubbering mess at a party and I'm a little annoyed that is was me this time….but then, I'm impressed that it's taken me that long to have a meltdown. lol.
All in all it was an awesome party and Zak and I had a blast.
We got home at 2am  and didn't go to sleep until 3am….and then idiot I am got up at 6:30am.
I wound up taking a nap later and got through the day just fine.
Kayla hung with the kids and Zak and I went out to the store and that was cool.

Today is a crazy busy day. I have to get Jamie's bangs cut and get her some more school stuff. Shoes…the kid needs shoes so bad. Oh and a backpack. That would help, huh? lol.

Ooooh!!! AND my mom is pretty much definitely coming!!!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY MOMMY TO BE HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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more later!