Anything But Gray

Sooo…
because I have such fantastic family….I got to go to the Bon Jovi concert in Boston last night and had KICK ASS seats. I went with Shelly, who has not been to a Bon Jovi concert since her and I went in 1989! It was SO FREAKIN' AWESOME!! Not the best show I've ever seen them put on, but good, nonetheless. It was so weird to be there with Shelly…..just like the old days when we would go to concerts all the time. He played a lot of songs I love!! Here's a little clip…..he changes his shirt to a Celtics shirt pretty quick into the video and toward the end he kisses a girl….very cool! lol.

Now the bad news….
Zak hurt his back really, really bad. The guy can barely move. I feel so terrible for him and completely helpless. The timing of this could not be worse.….He is supposed to take his test for his license today and we were supposed to maybe go to New York to meet J this weekend…the weekend in NY was already on shaky ground because of just moving and money and I think her weekends have been chaotic because she's having her basement done, so I wasn't really convinced I was going to get to go to NY…but it's his test that has me freaked out. We need him to get his license, like, YESTERDAY. He has to get his license. And not to mention we don't exactly have a boatload of money to throw around if he doesn't pass and has to retake the test. It ain't a cheap test to take…

Someone told me yesterday that I can't change it so why be stressed about it. And for some reason, that really got me thinking.  I wish I had what it took, to do that. I wish I could think of the test and his back and say screw it..can't change it, why be worried? It sounds easy, right? And it got me thinking that maybe I complain too much, maybe I bitch too much, maybe I'm not grateful enough and….maybe I ask for too much. It just was one of those comments that make you soul search. I don't have any answers….obviously…..but it's something I'm going to watch out for. I hate seeming….trivial….like a whiner….and ungrateful.

I'm just so utterly frustrated and worried and scared for him and I don't know how to turn off my stress and not worry about it. I just don't know how….

He feels better this morning which is awesome, but yesterday he felt terrible and didn't do any studying at all…
So keep your fingers crossed for him!!!!