Anything But Gray

Anyone remember this song?

J and I were instant messaging today and she commented this song was on. And I told her it reminded me of her. She was relieved to know it wasn't because of the words….ha!

This song reminds me of her because it reminds me of Florida. When Zak and I were living in Florida is when this song came out and that is also when J and I "met" online. It's one of those songs that remind me of someone, not so much because of the words, but becasue of the time period when it came out.

Now the words….or at least the title….reminds me of Ceci. Sophia Hawkins has a song called "As I lay me down" and there is a line in it that goes "I run to meet you  barefoot–barely breathing" and both of us ooohed and aahhed over that line. So wish we wrote it. This song is meaningful to her not just because of that lyric but because, if I am remembering correctly (and I am sure I am…), it reminds her of her dad. After talking to J, I got a bit weepy, missing Ceci and later I went and found that Sophie B. Hawkins song…. 

There will be many more of these songs, to come. I find comfort in music….whenever something big happens in my life, the songs find me and they comfort me and they make me feel whatever I need them to….they connect me to the people I love in a way nothing else does. They are my love letters….my history….my story….my shout out to my "people"….and for those few minutes….when I am listening…..I feel, physically feel, my love for whoever the song reminds me of. For me, it's the purest, deepst, and most honest my love is. And this Sophie B. Hawkins song, today…connected me to Ceci…

So Ceci….although this song already means a lot to you and I hope I don't intrude on a special song for you, but as I listened to this today….every word made me think of you.

 It felt like springtime on this February morning
In the courtyard birds were singing your praise
I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright
I carried them with me today, Now

(chorus) As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy

I wonder why I feel so high
Though I am not above the sorrow
Heavy hearted
Till you call my name
And it sounds like church bells
Or the whistle of a train
On a summer evening
I'll run to meet you
Barefoot barely breathing

(repeat chorus)

It's not too near for me
Like a flower I need the rain
Though it's not clear to me
Every season has its change
And I will see you
When the sun comes out again