Anything But Gray

I cannot believe it.
I can't believe I am now less than 24 hours from going home.

It's so surreal…even now, it feels like a dream.

these last few days have been really, really difficult.
Leaving Ceci and JR is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.
All year, I have known that leaving her is going to be so hard.
I didn't anticipate it being as hard on her. All the times I sat with her and cried at the injustice of having to give her up in order to get back home and she talked to me sensibly and reasonabl and calmed me down. Foolishly, it made me think that us leaving wasn't going to be as hard for her as it was for me.  Watching her these last few days I realize how wrong I was. And it's breaking my heart…

ugh…okay, done with this for awhile.
time to do something else or I'll completely fall apart.
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