Anything But Gray

2 young men.
Gone.
In the span of almost 2 months.
By their own hands.

I heard the sirens for the second one.
I remember thinking…wow, those are close by. Wonder what's going on.
And saying a little prayer, let it be something little.

Never could I have guessed what it would be.
I was browsing wesbites, emailing a friend, drinking my coffee…while a mother found her son's lifeless body.
And it breaks my heart….as if I should've known the complete and utter heartbreak that was happening a minute away.
I don't the family well at all, but I know who they are because Ceci is very good friends with them and dated the mother's brother years and years ago and from everything she has ever talked about, these people adored their kids. Their daughter drives a huge lifted truck with "Daddy's Girl" scripted on the back.

The mom went in to see JR because JR gave her son guitar lessons for years and was still teaching him. Once a week. I asked Ceci how she (the mom) was doing and Ceci says she's just living, doing what she has to do.

It's just so sad and terrible and your heart just completely breaks for these people.
And you find yourself hugging your kids a little tighter and praying, praying so hard, that your kids never feel like that is an answer for their angst.

Even though I didn't know either of these kids, my heart hurts for the families left behind, for the mom's that don't have their sons tonight. And I just wish I could fix it…