Anything But Gray

I'm going to be taking a break from my blog for bit.
There are big things going on in our lives right now, nothing catastrophic, but I need some time to readjust my mind.
My state of mind is becoming completely reckless and I am finding myself frantically searching for some kind, any kind, of distraction. I have felt this way before and I know from past experience that this is not a good combination for me. It is like I am a freight train barreling down the tracks and only a completely irresponsible and out of character action of some sort will stop it. I need to get this worked out in myself before I make any stupid mistakes.
I am feeling so unsettled, restless, trapped and I have some soul searching to do.
There are a lot of why's I am trying to figure out. I need to find answers for myself, to set my soul at ease and calm this frenzy that is slowly building up to a crescendo..

I am okay, really. It's not like I am in a depression or anything like that, everything really is okay and I'm going to be fine, but the time spent on this blog, I need to be spending on myself and figuring things out. I'm going to try to write this one out so instead of coming on my blog, I'll head to my music and my journals…the answers will come.

Here's a pic from Ben's birthday….it went really well. 🙂

Ben bday 2007 (63)

Don't mind my huge friggin' hips. I think the camera added 20 friggin' pounds and then I decided to lean in such a way that highlights those 20 pounds!! ugh! lol.

Tah, for now.