Anything But Gray

And it totally fucking SUCKS.
It's sucks, sucks, sucks, SUCKS.

Normally, I get a new  Bon Jovi cd and I devour it. I sit and listen to it with my headphones and really soak it in. And then I call J and we talked about it song by song. What we like, or don't like. What gives us goosebumps…what we wished we wrote. The lines that made us go "That's why I love him!!". J did it on her  blog right away. Here I sit on FRIDAY..(three friggin' days later!!) still not having had a chance to do that. I've listened to it over and and over, I know songs by heart already, but it's been in my truck while I'm driving the kids all around. Or going to do this errand or go do that thing for work.

Last night Zak and I got home from date night and JR and Ceci were sitting on the porch having a cigarette and talking. We all hang out outside for a few and visit. Ceci asks me "Have you gotten the cd yet?" And I say "yeah, Zak suggested trying Costco and they had it! I've had it since Tuesday." and she looks at me, jaw on the ground and a look of "What the fuck is going on?" in her eyes and she says "What?? Normally you're running around…oooh, listen to this part and oh my gosh, listen to this lyric" I was like "I KNOW…I have been so busy this week I haven't gotten a chance to even show anyone anything!!" So this is really, really unusual for me…to have the cd and not have really, really talked about it yet or shown people how awesome it is. It's not like I haven't gotten to listen, but I just haven't gotten an opportunity to really sit with it.

Being a grown up totally friggin'  blows.