Anything But Gray

We have all had them. Crazy mad crushes. I can count on one hand how many I've had…I've had tons of "little" crushes and infatuations, but there are just a few big ones. Some of you will remember this one…..because I wouldn't shut up about him for ages!! lol.

I met him during my CB days. His handle was Creeping Death and his name was Chris. If there ever was a boy to have a huge crush on, this was the guy you wanted to like. He was so understanding and so kind about it. Not kind enough to date me, mind you….but kind nonetheless. (ha!!) He was seeing a girl, a friend of a friend and they were at a party together. Some friends and I were going to this party and when Chris found out I was on my way he actually asked this girl he was seeing to not sit on his lap or act overly affectionate while I was there!! Now, if I was the girl he was seeing, I would've been pissed….way pissed…lol…but when you think about it, it's actually a really sweet gesture. That was the Chris I remember…just a very kind, gentle guy. And he didn't look it. He looked like a punk ass rocker guy, the long hair, the concert shirts, driving a beat up truck. But if you looked in his eyes, you could tell he was different. He had a twinkle and a kindness in his eyes that just made you feel so at ease. And in my case, so lovestruck. lol. He was amazingly sweet. We got to be pretty good friends. Chris is also the only guy in my entire life that I literally took advantage of. It's a long story, but I just happened to be around a night he was very, very drunk and I maybe, might've taken advantage of his intoxicated state….I maybe, might've started kissing him, knowing his guard would be down. Things maybe might've progressed from there……
And the whole time he kept saying…..ahh, never mind…getting caught up in a memory. No need for details!! Anyway…that night became our little inside joke.

I don't think about him often, but I've never forgotten him because I always say he was my nicest crush. He was the easiest crush I ever had.
I knew his brother too, not as well though. Tina told me the other day that an old friend of hers had Aaron (Chris's brother) on her my space page. I was like no way! And I followed the link thinking how neat it would be to see what Aaron and Chris look like now and to see what they are up to.  I wound up emailing Aaron and Aaron let me know that Chris passed away a few years ago.
I am so sad. I feel so badly for the people he left behind.
I am surprised….you just don't expect that.
For people to be gone. I was so excited that I had found a blast from the past and I was looking forward to hearing how his life had turned out.
Hopefully Aaron and I will stay in touch and I will still get to hear how his life turned out and Aaron's too, for that matter. Even though Chris's life ended way too soon, there are still a lot of years in there I would love to hear about.

My thoughts are so with Aaron and his family…..