Today is going to be weird.
Normally I pick Jaime up at 2:15 and I pick Ben up at 3ish. Today Jaime is going to Rally.
Rally is the afterschool program the school district runs here in Juneau. A few kids from Jaime's class go to Rally and she has been dying to go too. Funny isn't it? She's somehow deprived because she doesn't get to go to Rally. lol. Anyway….I might wind up using Rally for her during the summer so I figured I'd let her go to Rally, that way she can get an idea of what it's like. So I signed her up for one day, today. I don't have to pick her up until 3:45. I asked Ben's daycare if he could stay until 4pm and she is fine with that, so I'll pick him up right after Jaime.
WEIRD.
I just know at 2:05pm, I'm going to panic and feel like I'm forgetting something.
I'm excited too because I really want to get a lot of work done today. And I think that's going to be a big hour and a half. We'll see.
I'm having lunch with Ceci and Gwen today and I'm excited about that, too. It's date night, too. Sweet!!!
I have been having really bizarre dreams lately. I don't usually remember my dreams, but there's been a couple that I can remember vaguely and they are just odd.
One was Zak and I were at a Bon Jovi concert and James was there and we bumped into him there and I was so happy to see him and we all sat together and had a blast….
WEIRD. weird to dream about James and weird to dream about meeting up with him at a concert.
And then another one, I can't remember who I was in the room with but I was in a room with somebody and then the door slammed open and a guy (I know who it is, it's an actor who always plays bad guys but I can't remember his name…) starts shooting into the room.
REALLY WEIRD.
Yeah…try and figure those out.
I think I'll pass. lol.
Speaking of Bon Jovi. He's gonna be a doll. Him and Richie…..
I just want to hug him and squeeze him and love him….
I have been really homesick lately.
My sister is going through a bunch of stuff that I wish I could be back there to just be there for her.
My cousin is always after me to get my butt back there, but I can tell she's really missing me lately.
I just miss home.
16 years.
This is Kirk's fault and John's, for that matter.
No, wait….no it's TINA'S fault.
Actually….Tina & Kim, remember the day Kim called the donut shop and I was working and that's how Tina and I got back in touch? Was it Kevin you were calling for? I think it was.
Okay…it's actually HIS fault.
Or maybe it's Dave and Wanda's for hiring Kevin the first place.
This is fun….I can make this like some bizarre variation of 6 degrees of separation. LOL
I'm so kidding. It's no one's fault. And I don't regret my time spent here….
But I'm done.
So very, very done.
I wish I could take Ceci and JR with me….
I hate the idea of leaving them. Actually it's beyond hate, I loathe it. And frankly I'm pissed off. I think it sucks that in order to get back what I miss when I'm here, I have to lose her. I can't bear the thought of not living around her. I can't imagine my kids not having their Auntie Ceci right there with them. I can't even think for a second what that's going to feel like. Not very fair at all. It feels like I'm trading one heartache for another…..Yeah…let's leave that thought alone.
I'm working on convincing DJ and Kayla to come with us when we leave. DJ isn't going for it, but I just might be able to get Kayla….
We'll see.
Okay…I need to get a few things done before the day begins.
Anything But Gray 
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