Anything But Gray

I just read a story online.
A couple had 8 children and they lost their 3 year old daughter about 5 years ago.
A month ago they then lost 3 more children, their oldest 3, in a car accident.
My heart absolutely breaks for them. I can't believe how badly I can hurt for people I have never laid eyes on, let alone met. I just cannot fathom that type of loss and I am overwhelmingly amazed at the parents who do survive it.
They are amazing to me.

And here I sit…worried about money, stressing about making Jaime's birthday cake and decorating her cookies, pissed off that I don't live back at home….
Right now, right at this moment as I fight back tears and the urge to go gather up my kids in my arms and tell them how much I love them, I am so thankful that I have my baby girl to make a birthday cake for. So thankful that I have two children that we need to provide for, which is why I stress about money. So thankful that we are alive and healthy and happy, no matter where we live.
And so very, very thankful that God has blessed me with both of my babies for this long. Every day, every moment is truly a gift. Even the bad ones.
I am so lucky.

My prayers are so with that family.

J….I'm thinking of you and Wayne, too.
I tried to call tonight and no voice mail came on. You must've been on the phone.
I hope you are doing okay.
I will try you tomorrow.
I love you!