Anything But Gray

I had to tell someone I love dearly tonight a few things I know that they didn't want to hear.
Luckily I'm mad enough about the situation that I was able to send the email.
But it utterly breaks my heart.

I am this person's biggest fan. When everyone else would have hung them or given up on them a year ago, I have defended and stuck by them because I love them so much. Because they are a good person, a funny person, with a huge heart who truly means well but has just gotten lost.
But I've done all I've could to help and it hasn't improved the situation. It's just wound up hurting me and my family.
I can't do that anymore. I can't let that happen anymore.
I know in my heart it was the right thing to do.
But it scares me to death because this person means the world to me and I think we might not talk anymore because of this. I don't want to lose this person. I desperately don't want to lose this person.
I hope they realize how much I love them and how hard this is for me.

I hate when something hurts me so much that I manage to get through the day without crying but when I lay my head down to sleep the tears fall uncontrollably.
This is that kind of hurt….

Hopefully it'll all work out. I'm really praying that it does.
Honestly praying.